so what

i am so full of criticism right now. for everyone.

in my old age of sophmority i have remorse for people around me that are supposed to matter.

i didnt go to sleep last night, but i have no blaming factors. it was all me. working on a paper.

i have not eaten much other than bagels, cookies, cereal, = sugar + carbohydrates for the past couple of months. i hardly ever drink water that i need to get by. i think my body is sad.
i think not having access to nutritious food is a source of depression for somebody. i am so sick of eating this. i dont want sugar anymore, or bread. i do eat good things some friday nights and sunday afternoons, plus the occasional treat of free food at some event. saucy asian food. well i'm sick of that too because that's the only other alternative, ever. that i choose. i am a picky eater. but i seemed to be ok until this semester. i wish that if i didn't eat my stomach wouldn't hurt me.

i am still tight on schedule, until.... tonight. i have class now. i may be late. i have to finish my 7.02 publication. then i have to clean out next basement when classes are done. and go to steer roast? hawaii club dinner.

my body feels tired. my mind is sort of awake, at least.

i didn't stop since last night. hula practice, bcss event... this short post -is- my break.

how you treat people

matters.

do you love her? or, is she just a friend.


what are friends?
a relationship with mutual benefits, WITH A CATCH:
nothing is guaranteed.


unless you love someone.
what's love?
unconditional.... forgiveness.



but you need to show someone if you love them!!!!!!