emotional disturbance

i'm so vulnerable.

we are all sinners.


i'm studying: motivated, listening to my playlist on random.
i have lots of songs- songs from all different times in my life, from the britney spears/savage garden of elementary school to linkin park of middle school, and then the hip hop/r+b time period in 8th grade that includes some good songs. stuff thats nothing like nowday's hip hop song lists which just consist of hard core rapping and one or 2 catchy beats, but songs from j-lo and ja rule, ashanti/aaliyah from that time were different, and good.

like when i hear this song

link: 3LW - never get enough
[it wont let me embed the video -____-]

it makes me think of one person (who i haven't thought of much in the past couple of weeks) and being with him!

it's a good song, but... it really hits a rough part of my life. being with a guy. i don't need guys! but this song tells me that i do. :( people are controlled by their emotions........ right? they are a pretty strong influence, at least.

guys are no good though, i know that..... i do...
don't need a guy...................
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh


absence of a "need" --> minor, temporary form of 'suffering'? can you call it pain if you feel like it hurts?
am i just grumbling?