__ are frustrating.

i just got in a fight with someone. it wasn't so much a fight as... major dissonance and then he walked away. i think we disagree on some pretty important things.... but at the same time, we do agree. it just depends on the time of day. i prayed about it and God told me that with people... everyone naturally decides what to do to you based on what you give them. that could be: a good feeling from visual attractiveness, or maybe something about you--like you have glasses, makes you feel like you can relate to them one step further. perhaps they have had good experiences with certain races of people and that makes them feel more comfortable. whatever. it goes for what you give them visually, emotionally, socially, verbally, etc etc complicated others, and.. physically. the body *is* physical. so it matters a lot. but..... the reason some things don't happen is that God doesn't want us to feel unnecessary pain we put ourselves through. even if some things seem great, like drugs, they can have extremely damaging effects. later on.


(i'm hungryyy)

maybe i do care about this person a lot despite what they think of me now, but that means i have to go through lots of pain with them. -____- i resent that ><